IDC.... LMAO. I don't mind being a walking contradiction. It means that I am not set in my own thoughts. I have no qualms questioning my own beliefs. I don't mind being my own quagmire. Everything I do/ say has a purpose/justification. I spoke in the last blog about "Make It Zen" being a contradiction and yet in its own right, the title is justified. I am open to most thoughts and open to hearing most of other's p.o.v.(s) but at the end of the day, I still hold to what I want to hold to. Even if you just spoke for an hour or two. That's not time wasted. I get to hear you and try to understand where you are coming from. Doesn't mean I'm going to change my mind on what I think. Or maybe I would but just not right away. >shrug< who knows?? But all I can say is at the end of the day, contradicting or not, I can honestly say I try to be a better person. i do try. I just don't beat myself up for it. Many people get lost in their own practices of being "right" or their modality of thinking. Nothing is wrong with that. Studying Zen books...well...reading Zen books help me to understand that bringing peace to ones self isn't about change but acknowledgement. And it has nothing to do with how your "neighbour" views you. It's all about realizing who you are as a person and noticing your own patterns and the paths that you choose. Not every path I've chosen was or will be correct but I will continue choosing as I see fit. So call me a Contradiction just don't shorten the word to "Cont" (Pronounced "Cunt")....at least not to my face...that's just mean. :D
Keep on smiling and Make IT Zen. ALG.
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