Thoughts of Thisday night

Thisday was not a mistake. To the average pop, few might think that I meant something that they're most familiar with just so it makes sense in their head instead of hearing or paying attention to what's coming from mine. But Thisday, Thisday was a sign; an epiphanic tap behind meh head that revealed the unattractive green horns protruding from my head - horns that i thought were broken a long time ago. >pause< I can still feel them. But as I acknowledged them I took them off like a poisoned tiara; it's not healthy....it's not who I am anymore. And it doesn't matter who says or thinks differently to that statement, the important part is how I look at it. And I say that's not me anymore. I keep being told how complicated i am/can be and honestly i don't agree. Simply complex in a manner of thoughts. My thoughts are scattered so it takes me some time and days even to process something fully - i believe there are others out there like me - and i like to talk out my thoughts obviously!  i can see it being overbearing at times, so sometimes i just don't say anything at all. i like this song "Paradise" Martin is singing to me :) i don't have the energy to fight. i don't have the energy to do anything but just simply be me. So Thisday night, I will continue to reflect on my thoughts and actions, how it effects me and those close to me, but in the privacy of my own reality away from this post. And when i stop thinking, Martin will just sing me to sleep :) a nice song on Thisday night about a girl who dreamt about paradise.