3:24 AM

So I'm awake thinking about how long it would take me to wake up and get up out of this hole I have learned to call my life. Listening to Linkin Park thinking if they can break their habits then why can't i. he ws right i'm trying to run from myself. silly little girl. apparently. i laid here watching the calendar life of my past three months. talk bout drama. shim, i would be mad at me too if i didn't know myself any better. i guess what i find to be normal others find to be absurdly capricious.  oops. sigh. and maybe that's why ppl get md at me cause oops and sigh seem to be my ultimate responses as I move along with my life and leave others behind. bitch. who me? o. maybe. sorry. well, not really. cause i told you what it was from the beginning. never once did i lie. and that's the honest truth cause lord knows I'm Carrie crazy. so no, i wouldn't lie just tell u the truth with a smile. i'm tired but this damn insomnia is back again. my own thoughts won't leave me alone. did u know there's a difference between "won't"and "wont"?? anyway..yeah..thoughts..harassment. damn I'm annoying. ugh. i need a hug. sigh. don't touch me. don't act like if i'm the crazy one you're the one who drew the mental image of urself hugging me after I said i needed a hug. ugh. yeah...i'm this crazy. no wait. don't go. i'll leave.