Love Deferred

And she said to me that he isn't mine to have. two different paths that just happened to cross but it wasn't meant to be entangled. she said to me that I only had one purpose in his life and now that the purpose has been fulfilled I must let go and let him move on. and this he has to understand. and she said to me to wake up because there are other purposes that I am destined to. I wonder if I hid from her, if she, Fate, would find me.

More Than

I am more than just a hot ride on a Friday night
The sweet fuck of your Saturday plans
And a prayer for more head on a Sunday morning

I am more than the incessant phone calls after I've ignored your first ten
Don't worry about me now because when you were my prey there was no interest then

I am more than a vegetarian meal
This girl is to be eaten not just fed
Lol, I mean, I'm not all conversation either

I am more than just the yo-yo in your pocket
A boomerang in your backpack
And a frisbee for your damn dog

You want to know who am I?
You don't deserve that kind of time
And neither do I

unspoken

no explanation is needed when all that was needed to be said was spoken. I would've preferred if you had remained my favorite memory than to be the one who hurts me.

pain awakens life and reason

is there really anything more to add to that statement?

Loving Me!

I finally found the "One"! And they love me with all the Love that God has provided them to give to me. The one who listens to me when I speak, cry, laugh, or whisper. The one who lets me know that I am worth Loving and showing Love to. I found the one, the one who is ME.


Tired and exhausted of trying to find something that was already within me externally. I understand now why I am so tired. The search was useless because I am who I was looking for. It's funny that we don't listen to ourselves when we speak. If you are asking the question as to why others cannot be like YOU then maybe the person you are really trying to spend time with is yourself! And this should not be taken in a negative light because if you do not enjoy spending time with you then by God, who will appreciate the beauty that is within you? 


Shadowed by fear of conceit when all you are asking for is appreciation. Shadowed by fear of rejection when all you are asking for is appreciation. Shadowed by fear of rejection, when the real rejection is coming from within.