No Day Like Today

Today is especially hard for my family. Those of us who were close to them. Those of us who have fond memories of them. Those of us who grew up with them. For those of us who remember the day as if it were yesterday. It's tough. I never liked Valentine's day though there was that one guy who made it really special. But then the year after, I realllly hated Valentine's day. It's been twelve years and writing about it, talking about it, living two doors away from it, is still difficult. I watch my family and see how we can come together, fall apart, and back again in the same week or whenever it's suitable. I guess that's every family. Anyway - it's tough. Tried to wake up to do some chores around the house and so far the only success was creating a new CD for my car. But this day isn't as different as any other day. We remember them all the time. Talk about them. Talk to them. Think about them. Keep them alive by keeping them in daily thought. It's just that (sigh) no matter what's going on, this day will always be, that day.

I want them to rest in peace, but it is my soul that is restless. I am at peace with few things that had happened but the fact that she, they, are gone, it is me, us, the ones left behind that need the prayers of comfort, prayers of peace. *So I guess I'll just Imagine Dragons, Count Stars, and Burn the Dark Horse, because I Can't Remember to Forget You when All of Me walks this Tightrope so that I can be Happy.


*The last line is a playlist mix I've chosen today. 

I'm Tired of Being Misunderstood

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I'm sorry was I supposed to elaborate?

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Good Morning Snow,

Your peaceful blanket is only welcoming to look at
but your beauty is only a cover for the dirty slush that is to become of you.
Like children born and raised in poverty
The innocence is quickly lost and only few remain untouched.
The idea of you is "so pretty" as described by foreigners,
Like some motherless women who think children are "so cute"
But mothers watch those little "rug-rats" with both eyes always open to their tricks,
Just so, Snow, you do not fool me…

Ok. So my morning plans are officially ruined. I have to go clean off my car and traveling will be a pain. Wonderful… Maybe snow is that child that "only a mother could love," "Mother Nature." Hard SIGH. Try to have a great day Lovely Ones.


Have Fun and Make IT Yours.

If You Only Knew...

If you only knew how many times a day you cross my mind,
If you only knew how many times I've stopped those three words from coming out of my mouth,
If you only knew that I'd rather be with you than be with the one I love,
You'd be confused as to why I'm with you.
The truth is, there is no one that crosses my mind more.
The truth is, I've always whispered it.
The truth of it is, there is no one that I love more than you
But if you only really knew that, well...
Then you'd be forced to think, to know, to admit to yourself,
how many times a day do I cross your mind,
how many times you've tried not to say those three words,
and if there was anyone else in the world that you'd rather be with more...
If you only knew...